Less Gloomy, and a self portrait

September 24, 2006 at 10:50 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

I have been knitting, I promise I have, I just haven’t been able to take pictures of it lately.

I’m currently speeding through a 14 week course in 2 weeks, and have 2 very big reports that I have to do up. After October 4, however, I’ll have a bit more time (hopefully).

So, until then, here is this weeks Saturday Sky (well… it’s Sunday so mine might become Sunday skies, merely because I work pretty well all Saturday.)

A little less gloomy but not by much

You gotta love September, this is how my area of the world looks most days, we get a bit of sunshine, but there’s always the cloud covering at least half the sky.

I’ve also recently joined Self Portrait Tuesdays (or Challenge I think it’s called now) and September’s challenge is to have pictures that involve other people who are important to us.

So I took this picture.

Me and Chris for Self Portrait Challenge

This is Chris, my boyfriend. He is important to me because he is the one who helped me heal, he kept me going, and he’s my other half. I don’t think I could have made it through the last 4 years without him. I didn’t have a happy childhood and due to that I have a number of issues. He doesn’t judge, he doesn’t walk away when things get too hard, he just supports me where he can. He may not know the best way to deal with a situation, but he helps me get through it just by being there for me.

Now, you may think that it’s a rather bad picture of him, but I like this picture. This shows how our relationship is and what we have to deal with a lot of the time.

I am off in my own little world, having fun, trying to forget about my problems, and getting distracted by the pretty things that come along.

Chris is worried/concerned, keeping a watch on what’s going around, and always there to catch me when something goes wrong. If he didn’t watch out for me, no one really would.

The brick wall is all the difficulties that have happened in my life, abuse, depression, and disorders that I’ve gone through that caused me to build a wall between me and the rest of the world. This wall was what Chris had to break through over the last 4 years to find the real me, and to help me heal.

The space between us is everything that gets in the way of us being fully happy together, our mothers (mine being selfish and self serving and always just assuming that when she calls, I’ll come, and his having had him to herself for most of his life and not really ready to fully give him up to a new woman in his life). This is a space that has gotten much smaller over the last little while, and space I hope will disappear in the near future.

And as said, I HAVE been knitting and I will hopefully get pics for you soon. But until then I must get back to my reports.

I can’t wait till after the 4th.


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